Back in year Oct 2006, i found out i was pregnant with DD (2nd child). I was elated & so was DH. We had our 1st child in year 2005 & were hoping for more.
I brought a pregnancy test kit as my menses were 3 days late. Kiasu & Kanchiong me! The results was positive & i was jumping for joy. I text DH immediately. He thought i was playing a joke on him. My message to him: ” Congratulations. You are a father for the 2nd time. “
As i was still early in my 1st trimester, i decided to only make an appointment with my gynae at a later date but something was not right. I was bleeding slightly & i was worried. So a call to KKH was made & i was on my way to see my gynae.
During the scan, my gyane informed us there were 2 sacs which means i was having twins. And becos its 2 separate sacs, this means i would be having a pair of fraternal twins. My heart was jumping with joy. I cried, tears of happiness.
Alas, during the 2nd check up which was about 2 weeks later, my gynae noticed something different. One of the sac was empty, the other one was “occupied” with a tiny fetus, yes a baby.
He showed me the scan. Yes, we could see 2 sacs but only 1 was “occupied”. The other one was a total black, empty hole. My heart dropped. Where was the other baby?
At the 3rd check up, our suspicions were confirmed. The other empty sac has disolved back into my blood stream, hence no twins were involved. Only 1 & the only one.
I was devasted. What on earth could have happen? 2 sacs but only 1 baby…. Many questions ran through my mind… but no answer.
Well, at least i still have 1 perfect little one growing inside me, steadily & healthily. We looked forward to her birth. Year 2007, July, she was born.
4 months after her birth, DH & i were on holiday in Bangkok. I was in the shower when i felt something was not right again. I looked down & to my horror, i was bleeding from down there. Huge clots of blood dripped on the bath-tub. There was even 1 that was the size of a liver that you would buy from the market. I screamed for my DH.
We took the sample back in a container & showed my gynae. After some tests were done, my gynae confirmed that was indeed a miscarriage. But i shook my head. How can i be pregnant again, and its like only 4 months after the birth of DD… we did not have any sexual intercourse.
Both my gynae & us ran through all our records & suddenly it dawned upon us – could this be the so called twin i was supposed to have but was dissloved back into my blood stream, therefore allowing the other twin to grow.
This twin did not dissolved afterall. It was “hidden” somewhere but did not have the chance to develop. I cried buckets…. again questions begin to form in my mind… why why why… i kept asking myself.
My gynae did a little check on me to ensure i was clean inside. He told me there are still some clots inside me. Would i like to have D&C done or i prefer to miscarriage naturally? I chose the latter.
True enough, i was bleeding excessively the next month which of cos, coupled with some clots as well.
I went back to KKH again to “certified” i was clean inside.
Till now, whenever i see twins on the road, i would be reminded that I DID conceived twins as well. The other twin would be in heaven now, looking down happily on us & his/her fraternal twin, my 4 years old DD.